Staying the course

The Wii said I am 55 today. Yesterday I was 33. Hmmmmm.
As of the other day I went back to Atkins/Atkins maintenance because of my issues with blood sugar. It's what I always knew I needed to do, but was in denial about. The difference now is that there is no arguing about limits. No more of this "well I cheated a little, might as well go whole hog" kind of thing. It's not about numbers on the scale anymore. This may sound strange, but in a way it's kind of freeing. The constant arguments with myself about not letting a bite turn into a binge - well, they've kind of been co-opted by health issues. I can no longer justify a "last supper" event every time I slip up. Yes, it's a freeing kind of thing.

For example, last night we went to Melisa's where she set up a "nacho" bar. I took along a lowcarb tortilla and a bottle of diet root beer. I was able to load up my tortilla with beef, lettuce, cheese, sour cream etc. I even crumbled one nacho chip in it to give it some crunch. When you know the answer is going to be a resounding "no", it's easy to just not start the inner dialogue.

This way of life will never be a snap for me because this isn't just about blood sugar. It's also about compulsive eating, but I think one thing feeds off of the other. If I can get a handle on one, the other may also fall in line.

And by the way, I never did eat the lowarb tortilla. It was just the "vehicle" for the other stuff.