Staying the course

The Wii said I am 55 today. Yesterday I was 33. Hmmmmm.
As of the other day I went back to Atkins/Atkins maintenance because of my issues with blood sugar. It's what I always knew I needed to do, but was in denial about. The difference now is that there is no arguing about limits. No more of this "well I cheated a little, might as well go whole hog" kind of thing. It's not about numbers on the scale anymore. This may sound strange, but in a way it's kind of freeing. The constant arguments with myself about not letting a bite turn into a binge - well, they've kind of been co-opted by health issues. I can no longer justify a "last supper" event every time I slip up. Yes, it's a freeing kind of thing.

For example, last night we went to Melisa's where she set up a "nacho" bar. I took along a lowcarb tortilla and a bottle of diet root beer. I was able to load up my tortilla with beef, lettuce, cheese, sour cream etc. I even crumbled one nacho chip in it to give it some crunch. When you know the answer is going to be a resounding "no", it's easy to just not start the inner dialogue.

This way of life will never be a snap for me because this isn't just about blood sugar. It's also about compulsive eating, but I think one thing feeds off of the other. If I can get a handle on one, the other may also fall in line.

And by the way, I never did eat the lowarb tortilla. It was just the "vehicle" for the other stuff.


  1. I think there is a definite blessing in the "curse" of illness. Something about the lack of control allows us to stop trying to fix things according to our own free will.

    And the Wii fit age- mine goes from 22 one day all the way up to 79 some days. Cheeky monkey !

  2. GOd sometimes has to go to extremes to get one's attention. The low carb diet is the only one that works for me, and now that hubby is diabetic, it is easy to keep him and myself on track. Now that you have the motivation you need, it should be easier to stick to.
    God bless you.

  3. Yep, I can definitely see God's hand at work here. The blessing is that it is not full blown diabetes. Keeping it that way is definitely motivating.

  4. Thats the way to do it girl!!! Stick with it! I'm cheering you on! Jinx!