I just finished my walk/jog outside. I am down 2.2 this week for a net loss of 3.8 only 96.2 to go! LOL! Actually I am only focusing on 5 pounds at a time. Looking at the big picture is just too overwhelming. I mentioned that I watch Hoarders on Monday nights. Whether we hoard stuff or pounds, sometimes we just need to zone in on small chunks. Earlier I related the decluttering of our house to my weight loss journey. So far, the incremental progress is not visible. But that doesn't matter. If someone walks in our house and sees clutter, that's okay because I know I am dealing with it. The same is true of - in Flylady's words - Body Clutter. No one can see the 3.8 pound loss, but I know it's there. As the weeks go by it will be more visible. People may notice and comment, but my journey isn't about that. I learned long ago that sometimes the people closest to you are the least likely to be encouraging. But that's okay. This isn't about them. It's about me and how I feel about myself. It is no longer about vanity, or trying to please people. It's about me being the best Me I can be. That's not going to be good enough for some people, but again, though it may make me sad because that kind of support would be nice, it's not going to be the determining factor in what I'm doing. That's been my mistake for too many year, both with house clutter and with body clutter. My motives are now to do what I do because it gives me joy. When I get up in the morning, even though I am in the beginning stages of getting this house and this body in order, I can open the refrigerator and see a concrete example of working the plan. Opening my refrigerator makes me smile. Putting a sticker on my calendar makes me smile. As time goes on and the decluttering spreads, there will be more and more to make me smile. And when I smile, I feel happy, and when I feel happy everything is easier to deal with. Soon happiness takes over your life and you wonder why you waited so long and wasted so much time and joy.
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Since I went outside this morning, I haven't done today's reading yet. I will be back later tonight to update.
Nina, Diane, Deb - thanks so much for the support!
*********Evening Update**********
Today's reading from 100 Days of Weight Loss is about being aware of what we are eating. Paying attention to flavors and textures. No distractions like the TV or the computer (my biggest no no) or eating while driving. No multi-tasking while eating! We are reminded that we eat for two reasons - fuel and enjoyment. Neither of the functions needs to be accompanied by anything except perhaps the company of others.
In the Beck Diet Solution book we are encouraged to plan for tomorrow. A few minutes spend planning saves a lot of time in the long run. Now that I'm home more and my life is less structured, I need to plan ahead - especially since there are many more variables in my life as far as kids go. It is too easy to get caught up doing "filler" things and accomplishing nothing. I just checked tomorrow's menu plan. Bean Soup. It's a good thing I planned ahead because the beans need to be soaked. It took me 1 minute to put those beans in a bowl of water, but saved me a lot of time in having to come up with an alternative meal for tomorrow. Less stress, more calm, more awareness at meal time.
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I have officially completed 21 straight days of working out. I have 21 stickers on my calendar. Exercise is now a habit. Tomorrow I start the next phase - my food plan. I explained yesterday what that would be. I will award myself a sticker for each day I accomplish my goal in that area. I'm excited and nervous - but I can commit to 21 days. I can. I will.
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